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Jacob's Page

3 years old

One Day At A Time
Author Unknown

I don't wish to know tomorrow,
for the trials of today
are enough to keep me busy
here on lifes pathway

God in all his great wisdom
could so easily see
one day at a time
is enough for me

No need to be anxious
for what the future holds
God must prepare you
as each new day unfolds

So Lord,I trust you
the future is all Thine,
Please help me to live
one day at a time.

"The River"
Artist: Garth Brooks

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And the dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores...and

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say your satisfied
Choose to cance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide ...yes

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

And there's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
But with the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...Yes

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Yes, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
'Til the river runs dry


Jacob was born on August 1, 1997 by C-Section. He was our second child and
our first son. Immediately upon birth we had visions of coaching Little League,
fishing, hiking, playing football; all the stereotypical things boys like.

When Jacob was first born he was a little blue. The doctor's acted just a
little different than they did when our daughter was born. They gave him an
IV solution and then calmed down as he turned pink. We, in turn, calmed down
too. On August 3rd,after a two night stay in the hospital, we were told we could
go home.

We asked about Jacob's rapid breathing and were told it was newborn breathing
and not to worry. So we went home to start our lives as the "perfect family".
The next day Jacob was still breathing fast and not eating. We took him back to the
hospital but were told we were paranoid parents. He was prescribed Pedialyte and we
were sent home.

On August 9th we awoke to find Jacob with purple marbling on his legs and as
cold as ice. We rushed him to the hospital as fast as we could go. This began an
all day battery of tests. We were first told it was merely a heart murmur and he would
be fine. Only our parents were told by a nurse, "Pray, because I don't think this
child will make it."

We were later told that we had arrived at the hospital with only 30 minutes
until our son would have had no hope.
Later in the evening on August 9th we were told that Jacob had Hypoplastic Left
Heart Syndrome, a congenital heart defect that is essentially half of a heart.
Jacob would need a heart transplant. He was eight days old.

This began the most horrific time in our lives. At first we were in a
daze. It felt like a bad dream. Then we felt sorry for ourselves. This was
the "Why me?" phase. Then we felt angry. Lastly, we felt useless as
parents. This was the hardest time for us. As parents you feel it is your
job to protect your family. Here was our son slowly dying and we were
powerless to stop it.

Gone were the dreams of Little League. They were replaced by thoughts of
"what kind of casket should we get, where should we bury him?" A parent
should never have to think about funeral arrangements for their child but sadly
enough, it happens. We thank God that we have never had to actually go through
with them, yet.

Jacob waited for four months for a donor heart. He went through several
procedures in the mean time to keep him alive. From the beginning we were
told he probably wouldn't live for more than two months. One procedure even
caused a stroke. Through it all Jacob fought for life. He far exceeded
expectations for a child in his condition. In November of 1997 we were
called and told a heart had arrived. 30 minutes later we were called again
and told the heart was not a match. We were devastated.

However, one week later, on November 21, 1997 we received the call that
would save Jacob's life. A perfect match had been found. After 6 hours of surgery
Jacob had a new heart. He was four months old. Three days later he would smile
for the first time in his life.

1 day post transplant

Two weeks later we could bring Jacob "home". Home meant an apartment we
had to rent in Loma Linda to stay near the hospital. After four months we
were allowed to bring him home to our real home.
We have been truly blessed by our son. He has taught us many lessons
about life. We don't know how long Jacob will be with us. Every day is
another gift from God and for that we are truly thankful.

2 months post transplant

January 1998, two months post transplant

2 years old 1 year old

August 1998, 1 year old *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*August 1999, 2 years old

*Note from the designer ~ In August of 1998 we met Xandra, Annette, Miranda and Jacob.
It was a terrifying time in our lives. It was only a few weeks after we had been told that
our unborn son, Logan, had Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. We were scared. We were lost.
Most of all, we were afraid to hope. We needed desperately to see for ourselves that
these little "heart babies" could survive. We reveled at the site of Jacob. So adorable...
so alive. It was a wonderful visit, one that will stay with us forever. The strength,
compassion, and hope that we gained from Xandra and Jacob will live on with us forever.
Even now, almost 3 years to the time we met, it's here in our hearts. Even now, without
our precious Logan, they have remained a part of our lives. Always there to listen to us
share our memories of our little hero.
We are honored to create this page for this beautiful little boy and his family. We know
that it could never do justice to the hope and inspiration they have given us.
Thank you, Xandra, for being part of Logan's life and for letting us share in Jacob's life.
Heart hugs,
Desiree & Brandon Vaught

Time to update!